August 28, 2006

LifeSuck

For the first time in a while I actually feel exhausted, completely drained, almost as though the life has been sucked out of my body. In the movie The Princess Bride, Westley is captured and hooked up to torture machine in the Pit of Despair and they crank the machine up to maximum life sucking... that is how I feel.
Blah.

August 17, 2006

It's the End of the World As We Know It

My random recurring thought:
Do you think the world will end catastrophically before you die?

My personal thought...
Yes.

My analysis of my thought...
I have always felt like something will go wrong with the world catastrophically. Not like an Armageddon sort of thing, but more like a poof and were done sort of thing. I wonder if that is representative of my personal feeling that "the glass is half empty" when it comes to my chance of having a better life than the previous generation. Based on what I understand, most people in my generation feel that the American dream is dying rather quickly for us non-inheriting millions from our parents sort of people. Frequently I wonder how in the world I could ever afford to have offspring in this country.
Anyhow, I digress and I should get my butt to bed.
Jason

Late Night, lots of thoughts, too much caffine

Well, it is nearly 3am and these nights have been happening more and more lately. It is pretty exhausting. It seems every chance I get to try and fall asleep my brain just doesn't stop running. I tried reading for a while and I couldn't even focus on the book. My head just seems so clogged lately. I can't honestly even say what my brain is trying to deal with. It alternates between work, future plans, Erin being gone next week, Nate leaving town, our budget, and then back to work again.
My hope is that some day soon things will slow down. I don't know how to train my brain to switch off work thoughts. I just worry about getting everything done to the best of my ability.
Well, seeing as it is late and I have an early morning. I might as well head to bed and attempt to sleep again.
The ultimate kicker of tonight... a night where I can't sleep and Dofus (my MMORPG) is offline...
I guess I wasn't supposed to have any escapism tonight.

Later